Not psychedelic therapy.Not a medicine.Not healing.A four-month protocol for removing what was never yours to carry.
Awaken with 5 is a four-month protocol built around a single private, one-on-one 5-MeO experience. One month of preparation. One day. Three months of integration. It is not about becoming anything. It is about removing what was never yours to carry.
- Medically Screened
- 1-on-1 Experience
- Four-Month Container
Not becoming. UNbecoming.
Medical screening, clinical preparation, and four months of structure. Most people who arrive here have already done the work — years of it. What they haven't done is remove the thing that kept making the work necessary.
Why you're here
You've likely done the work. The books, the biohacking, the breathwork, the therapy. You did them sincerely. They worked — in the way they were built to work.
You've built a life that looks the way it was supposed to look. And something underneath it never settled.
That isn't a discipline problem. The tools were built for a nervous system you don't have. And they were aimed at a layer that isn't generating the problem.
This isn't about adding more. It's about removing what was never yours to carry.
This is the quiet knock. It doesn't go away.
Our approach
No group retreats. No feathers. No spiritual bypass. A screened, structured protocol — and something that holds the change after the day is over.
Not psychedelic therapy.
It doesn't fix your ego, process your pain, or integrate your trauma. It interrupts the operation those tools have been working on top of.
Not a group experience.
Private. One-on-one. Not performative, not ceremonial, and nobody else in the room.
A Four-Month Protocol
The day is the smallest part of it. The month before and the three months after are what make the change hold.
What the protocol looks like
This isn't a day trip. It's four months, in three phases.
Preparation
One month before
Medical screening, with eligibility determined by a licensed physician. Nervous-system preparation, which trains your system to stay open while its own alarms are firing. A daily practice drawn from mindfulness-based cognitive therapy. Sessions with our clinical therapist before you go anywhere near the molecule. You don't arrive hoping. You arrive prepared.
The Experience
One day
A full day, one-on-one. Sixty to ninety minutes of preparation. A two-hour window for the experience itself, in which each administration's acute effects last ten to thirty minutes. Then at least ninety minutes of reflection and debrief. 5-MeO is metabolised quickly. There is no comedown and no next-day residue. We arrange transportation back to your accommodation.
Integration
Three months after
Three months of weekly one-on-one integration. Every session is mandatory. This is the part that gets skipped everywhere else, and it is the reason most psychedelic experiences become a story someone tells rather than a change someone keeps. The experience opens a window of neuroplasticity. Integration is what gets built inside it.
One day is not a protocol. Four months is.
What holds it
The experience is the shortest part of this. Everything below is why it doesn't fade.
Eligibility is determined by a licensed physician — not by us, and not by you. He conducts the intake conversation and the clearance himself. A registered nurse is on site when he indicates it, and reachable and available to come on site otherwise. This is not a ceremony run by someone who did a weekend training.
We track change with the REWired Index, our own pre- and post-protocol assessment, across fewer than fifty participants to date.
Fifty people is not a clinical trial. We say so because the alternative is to let you assume it was one.
Suffering runs as a sequence: separation, then identity, then meaning-making. Integration works that sequence in reverse. Not a new belief to practise. A structure that removes the need for one.
Why 5-MeO
Most psychedelics add. They give you more — more imagery, more content, more material to interpret afterward.
5-MeO subtracts. Fast-acting. Non-visual. It doesn't decorate the self or rearrange it. It briefly removes the assumption the self is standing on.
That isn't a side effect. That's the mechanism. And it's why it belongs at the end of an architecture, not the beginning of one.
- 5-HT1A
- Non-Visual
- Minutes
"If other psychedelics show you more, 5-MeO shows you nothing. That's the point."
Who you'll be with
You won't do this alone.
Nicholas and Fehren Kusmich facilitate every experience personally, one-on-one, supported by a network of medical and clinical professionals.
Between them: more than a decade of work at the intersection of nervous-system architecture and non-dual inquiry, and over 300 facilitated experiences.
In their words
Nothing around me has changed, and I have changed quite a bit. The first thing that I've told close people around me is that it was like there was an emotional reset button, and I really mean that. Like a button or a switch that was just pressed.
I'm still comfortable being who I am. I'm not concerned about stories that I may have told myself in the past, and if I do sort of go down that path, I'm very aware of it and I can get myself out of it quickly.
I feel free. People have told me that I feel lighter around them.
I'm able to just stand up for myself and be myself around others, regardless of what they think of me.
Not everyone is medically eligible. Not everyone is at this point in the work.
If the knock is familiar, the next step is a conversation.
Application, then medical screening, then a conversation.